| Right from the begining, I have been wondering why is the concert titled "the answer is".....
And it was untill yesterday, I started to ask myself if I should just go ahead to attend the concert which I bought a pair of tickets much earlier.... THE ANSWER IS... Go!
10 July 2009 is a day that left a deep impact in my life. My mom called me around 3pm, crying and screaming, saying that uncle Seng had passed away. Uncle Seng is her younger brother. I rushed a cab down from Clementi to SGH, while in the cab, I texted my sister, calming her down and telling her that I m very worried about grandma. When I reached SGH, I saw grandma arriving in the cab behind me. I was lost! I dunno how to console her... We proceed to registeration and have our temperature taken. The part time student worker insensitively told us that Uncle has passed away, in front of grandma. Good thing is that she was in a state of lost and confusion. She did not heard what the boy told her.
We were then ushered to the family room, where family members of the deceased waited... Everyone is crying. Mom even broke the news to grandma, causing her breaking down. No one can hold her, or control her.
At that moment, another nurse came in with a piece of "good" news. She said that doctors are able to revived my uncle and regain his heartbeat. Tho his heart beats is only less than 10% of a normal human's, at least they saved him. But after doctor's explaination, it seems like it wasn't a good news afterall.
Uncle Seng lost his heartbeat for an hour, and his brain is already affected. His next 48 hours are very critical, which determine if he will be able to pull through.
I m not very close to uncle Seng, but I m sad to see my grandma cry... I was even thinking of selling off Sun Yanzi's concert ticket in order to stay with them.
That thought was like pestering me since yesterday... I been wanting to wacth Yanzi's concert, wanting to see and hear her sing WO BU NAN GUO & WO HUAI NIAN DE live.... yet on the other hand, I felt that I m being heartless to go concert when my uncle is sick in the ICU and my family are affected.
I m struggling between my WANT and my CONSCIENCE. Yet i chosen my WANT.
Yes, to many others out there, maybe you guys would have gave the concert a miss. But I did something that I nvr tot I will do. That is very not me! I went to the concert, knowing that my sister and my mom are in the hospital with other relatives....
Am I heartless?? or I mean, am I very "evil"?
What is your answer?
The answer is.....
It was only halfway thru, then i begin to feel much comfortable and letting my mind taking a break from the emotional stress. It could be due to the upbeat and fast tracks Yanzi sang from the start, it could also be due to the impressive stage design! Slowly, i got into the concert mood, humming along some of the familiar tracks.
I have a lot to compliment abt her concert, but somehow, I m not in the mood to do so... All I can say now is that it was AWESOME! Yanzi in the right form, dancers are great, stage is wonderful and magical!! I did helped took my mind off a few hours from the draining emotional strain.
Wanted to go hospital after concert, but mom said only nominated family members are allowed. Thus, I can only come home, blog, pray for a miracle and visit uncle Seng tomorrow.
Uncle Seng, I keep thinking of some moments we shared together, all i can recall at the moment is those times we met on the street, and we called out to each other... sorry uncle, i did not stay by your side, but be strong. Grandma is still hoping for you to go home! We want you to go home too...
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